Remembering Yesterday but Enjoying Today
May 22 was also a difficult day. Sheila and I married on that day in 1977, twenty-eight years ago. It would have been our 28th anniversary. I sometimes wonder what it would have been like to be married to the same woman for 28 years. I must admit that I envy those couples that have had such a life-long experience and see their children grow up in the Lord together.
But May 22 was also the day I attended my 18 year old daughter's bacculaurete service. She graduates from High School on Friday. Rachel is not Sheila's child, but mine through my second wife--Barbara. How can I mourn Sheila and at the same time rejoice in Rachel? I do both. It does not seem "logical" but I gave up a while back on our experience of joy, sorrow and God as "logical." I just live, experience, relish, lament, mourn, rejoice and express my feelings to God...whether joy or sorrow. He gives both and I experience both, and I trust both serve ends to which he is leading me.
So, yesterday, I mourned and I rejoiced; I lamented and I celebrated. It was a good day for a tear but also for a smile. Life is like that. We experience the "evil and the good"--and we continue our journey of faith into the life of God.
And life moves toward someone...it moves toward God. And we enjoy God's new gifts--like the new gift God gave me in 2002, Jennifer. Her love as been a means by which God has comforted my soul and cared for my wounds.
The journey will yet have bumps, wounds and hurts....every journey does. But God is walking alongside and also standing in the future drawing me toward the fullness of his Triune fellowship. The future is the reality where full joy, renewal and healing awaits. I long for it, but as long as today is today, I will yet rejoice in God's gifts in the present....knowing that they will be carried forward into the future, consummated and enriched.
Shalom, my friends.